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July1,1999
Happy July all....feeling alot better today, got great clothes at the boutique, (salvation army) Annie will be here in two days!!! 9am, I cant wait...I have been picking her up some clothes, and a new comforter and sheets and curtains from work, I hope she likes them, she is in that lime green, orange look...and I got her black and burgandy roses....It matches the room. My landlord came to look at the house and he was totally floored...he told me what great taste I had, and he loves it..(he better not raise the rent) actually he did say that he would give me a great deal if I wanted to buy it, something to ponder....I really do love it. My perfect country house..what I always wanted. Other then that, got on the scale and friends I havent moved an ounce, I guess thats good....but still wish I had a loss. Going to go into full overdrive now....guess it was the inches that made the fives fit. Maybe Im just doomed to be 138....lol.
Whatever, its the time to get moving and get back into action....got to work them thighs, which I swear are my dad's.....:-). Talk to you all tomorrow.
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July2,1999
One more day! I can not even begin to tell you how excited I am to have my Annie home....I bought her a Cosmo for teens, it was a first issue, and I think she will think its pretty neat. Better then her reading mine. Keith is excited as well. I have so many plans for her and him, and really feel great about it all, its going to work, I know it is. Finally got the ac working at work, about 3:30, half hour before we get to leave, but out of there til Tuesday. Got Annie some more stuff, and wow, all I can say is that I am very excited. I really got to start calling her Andrea, thats what she wants to be called now...:-). Guess she grew out of the Annie, anyway...parents are still coming Monday, Im sure it will be a short visit like always,hope its painless and I dont get put on a major guilt trip as usual....Well, gonna jump in the shower, talk to you all tomorrow....
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July3,1999
Hi all, figured I would post early before Annie gets here, and we go to the barbecue later....its going to be a great day. Im so excited, I know I keep saying that, I am! Looking forward to everything, her being home where she belongs, the party later, should be interesting.....I hear she is making a special "meatloaf". Think I will eat before I get there, lol. I guess I forgot to tell you that Lucy & Ricky are most definately females, birdguy is very embarrassed and promised me two males. Still waiting on them so we can try the breeding again. Anyway, I figured I would bring Cindy (the girl having the party that believes everything is to be eaten) the lovebird eggs....hey breakfast! Anyway Keith has been looking at them way too much, I think he lived up here in the country a little too long :-). SHES HERE!!!!! see ya tomorrow
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July4,1999
Happy July 4th all, Its great having Andrea back home, we had a great time yesterday, and I have to say the food was good...not sure what the meatballs were made of, but it was good....the kids had a good time in the pool all day, and it was nice to just watch them together laughing and having fun again, Im certain this "we love each other" is only temporary....I know the first 6am fight is on the way soon...almost looking forward to it, I miss it. I know crazy...Well since the parents are coming tomorrow we got lots of work to do, finishing some painting and I want to shampoo the carpets. So you all have a great holiday, play safe, behave and talk to you all tomorrow
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July5,1999
HOT.....It was disgusting today, I guess being up here in the country you get used to pretty nice summer's, I was sooo close to buying an ac today.I hate it like this. Bad hair, bad makeup...lets face it, you look like crap. Anyway, mom and dad came, it was rather painless...and short. A little guilt about the wedding and all, but I let it go in one ear and out the other. Last nite Rich and I took the kids to dinner and a movie. We went to the chinese buffet and whatever I ate made me so sick last nite, so guess where mom and dad wanted to go for lunch????? You got it. I was so sick as soon as I got in there. Rich took Keith to see Star Wars and I took Andrea to see Austin Powers, stupid....but then again, U cant help laughing its so dumb. So back to the grind tomorrow...and of course Andrea and Keith are fighting again....I knew it wouldnt take long :-). Well talk to you all tomorrow.
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July6,1999
It wasnt hot today, it was a sauna. Disgusting.....The cold front is supposed to be coming in tonight, lets hope so. Last night Keith fell down the stairs, I found him at the bottom on the cement floor, he was okay but I took him to the hospital, and 3 hours later I found out he was okay. I knew he was, but ya know you have to take them to make sure they are ok. So needless to say Im in trouble again, Rich was late for his delivery, my fault.....no Keith's fault. I told him to go a thousand times, but he insists I cant see at night,(I have a little trouble) so he stayed. Im sick of this and because I am, hey my checkbook, creditcards, maybe the car, puter is all going to be taken away because, 1, Im a lousy mother,2, lousy human being, 3, my fault for everything. Im at the final straw....Im losing it, and not just weight anymore. He took Andrea with him on the truck and when he gets back I have to hand over everything..he is lord and master you know. My parents came back this afternoon, surprise and took me and Keith to dinner......I should have told them no and not gone out. They want me to go to Brooklyn to talk to my grandmother (on my moms side) she's getting a little senile and is hiding our inheritance in toilet paper...we have a problem. So they want me to go and try and convince her to put it in a safe depositbox and send the key to mom before she gets robbed or something.....really looking forward to this one. So that was my day....lovely, hot, and damn right pissed off to be honest. Hope tomorrow is better.....
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July7,1999
A little better today, heatwave broke, felt great. Rich called back last night and we talked, Im still upset but at least its calm for the moment. I just got served with papers from my last landlord, they are suing us for 4000 dollars for stolen property and damage....a major joke. We didnt give them last month rent because we knew they didnt have our security, they even admitted it, damage...a crack in the door. Their house is a piece of crap, they are hard up for money and obviously think we are stupid. Everyone that knows me, knows that I am spotless, I have never left a house dirty or damaged, and always paid the rent....they said we didnt pay the late fees when we were late, LOL...I have every check I wrote with late fees.....which was maybe three times after two years. They went through our personal belongings when we werent in the house because they said that we stole from them....another laugh, we moved them all the way to southern Pa in Rich's truck and saved them 4000 dollars, so they gave us two crappy bookshelves, an old couch and table, and some curtains...now they are saying we stole it......this should be very interesting. I have never been sued by any landlord I ever had....unbelievable on what some people do because they are so hard up for money.....
They cant sell the house, moldy, fungus basement, absestos shingles, 25 year old plumbing, wiring, appliances, roof.....illegal coal & wood stove hooked up together in the basement...so desperation, lets sue us. A-holes....they have no idea how many witnesses we have. Even the judge who is hearing the case was at the wedding. LOL. He did have a runny nose...I was trying so hard not to laugh when we were getting married. Anyway, the case is July 13th, will let U know...I wish I could go on people's court or something. That would be great.
So thats the story for today. Doing the never ending laundry, and just enjoying the great day. Talk to u all tomorrow
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July8,1999
Feeling pretty stressed out today, the lawsuit...I got the date changed til the 30th, and rounding up the friends to write notes....
have alot out there that owe me one. Although they dont have to lie or anything like that. Just its an annoyance I guess, and really stupid. Couldnt eat today or last night...I know it doesnt bother me when I get into that non eating for days habit....but maybe the damn weight will budge. I swear that scale wont move. Longest plateau I ever had, but then again maybe Im just at the perfect weight for my body structure and I cant do anything about it. Nah, Im not giving up!
Battle of the body and will going on now. Im just pissed, miss my friends, miss having a big closet...lol. Andrea and Rich had to go to NoCarolina so Im not sure when they are getting in, I miss her so much already, I guess cause she just got home and wanted to be with Rich.....hopefully that will change, god I hope so. Okay going to sign out now, else I will just get more and more depressing....so talk to you all tomorrow.
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July9,1999
Still stressing over here, but getting tired of stressing if that makes any sense....bad day at work, thinking about putting my notice in next week...spend the rest of the summer with the rugrats, who knows, maybe even get back on the truck and travel.....I always loved that. Still working hard here on the diet, trying not to succumb to a chocolate attack. I will win.....well going to do something, not sure,
just something...talk to you all tomorrow.
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July12,1999
Couldnt get to the puter this weekend, had lots to do, Rich and Annie coming home, this and that, nothing to write home about. Anyway, my neighbor Sandy and I are going to start walking tomorrow at 5:30. I know I can get up........her, we will see. Her b-day is a few days after mine and she wants to be able to fit in one of my dresses(we are hitting the city to go out!)......so walking it is. Im kinda glad to find a walking partner, hate going by myself. I didnt give my notice today, I had every intention too, but I really owe some money, the kids want me to keep it (have to wonder why on that) Its just Rich that wants me to give it up......what to do? Andrea is doing great, and I really think I have my little girl back.....well okay, I know she isnt a baby anymore. She wants to lose weight too, so I have her on a pretty good plan. She gained alot at her dad's.....all he had in the house was TV dinners and sweets. Figures, So now she has to adjust to my fruits and normal healthy meals instead of all that junk she was eating. The battle, never ends. Well my children are making me dinner, isnt that pretty cool? Talk to you all later......
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July13,1999
What a day....the neighbor next door is running a little whore house, came home from work today to hear that 4 guys were there today, one after the other. In front of all the kids, this has been going on for awhile, and ya know you try and keep to yourself about it..but enough is enough. Both of my kids saw it, and I kinda flipped...called her outside, me and Sandy, my other neighbor and I let her have it. I feel pretty bad, made her cry....but I wanted her to look at me and she refused, I wanted her to wake up and stop...not just because of the kids that she is doing this in front of, but her self as well. We all make mistakes, but damn she is really going quite over the edge with this garbage and frankly who wants that kind of men around here?
None of us do...but this is a small town, everyone is buzzing about it. It just makes it aggrevating, sometimes, especially days like today I miss the Island..where most of the people seem quite normal.
Well enough about that......and now Im kinda without a thought,lol.
Doing good with the dieting, exercising, not...but will get to it again. The weather has been great, perfect for walking, but I get home and everyone is on my porch....making the coffee and just shooting the breeze...love it though. Well going to sign out, talk to you all tomorrow.....
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July14,1999
It was pretty quiet here today, except for the teenage boys that walked by the houses and screamed out,"Theres the whore's house" pointing to the right house thank god. What a great little town we live in.....lol. Besides that all is going well with Andrea except that she wants to get back to that "certain church" again, and Im just not crazy about the idea. Its totally against all that I believe in, and I want her here with me, with her family. She wants to go to camp next week for four days with the church group, I know that it will all be supervised and all.....but she just got home. Maybe Im being selfish, she has been very good and trying hard. I also feel that I should let her explore what she feels about God and becoming closer to him, but man I hate this church and all they stand for. Does that sound bad? Im having a really hard time with this. She probably will hate me if I dont let her go, and if I do I will be mad at myself.....just another rollarcoaster ride. Still doomed at the same weight here.....IS IT GONNA TAKE ANOTHER YEAR?????????? okay, calming down now.....just really aggrevating me, as well as the posion ivy all over the place, the kitchen floor that does get mopped in the morning and never looks it, my lovebirds that wont stay in their cages and wreck my office, oh yeah.. Ms Hanger of the year at work....she really pisses me off. Think its time to sign off. Talk to you all tomorrow.
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July15,1999
Well I think our little hooker is being booted......seems like my neighbor told her boyfriend, and last I saw she was bringing boxes in the house. Really hope its her, and not him moving out. My friend Melinda from work didnt show up today, and its not like her to do that.....I was the only one worried, and all of the girls got on my case cause they say Im a "sucker" for bringing her home everyday.....yeah, its ten miles out of the way, its a drag at times....but damn so many times I have been carless, my ex would never let me have the car and begging rides really sucked...so call me what you will, I feel bad that she has no way other way home....Just makes me wonder what they say behind my back, not that I care though. Ok, Mariah(SIC?), you didnt leave me a email in my guestbook and I agree with you that its good for the kids to be involved with a church group, it keeps them occupied, gives them a closeness to God, thats not my problem, I am christian you can say, I believe in God and Jesus......just organized religion at times is not my thing. This church I feel is sort of like a cult....it REALLY bothers me. I have done alot of research on it, and the more I do, the more I hate. The camping trip Im just not too keen on, its hard when you are so against what they stand for. Thats all I can say. Rich and I are still going back and forth if she should go or not. Well thank god its fri tomorrow....had enough of this week, the army, and man, Im going to be 38......uck. see ya tomorrow.
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July16,1999
Figured I would write early, Rich will be home this afternoon and I guess we are going to get started on the living room and other things to do..We are supposed to go out for my bday, Sandy (her bday is a few days after mine) cant go, so its just us if we go. I want to, and then again I dont....still get that feeling that I dont deserve it. Anyway, thats all going to change.....starting today. Im going to change alot of things about how I feel about myself and all the blame I put on myself constantly.....I want to like myself again, that old mirror has not been kind. The days that I go not eating, then eating too much, its not good. Its only going to bring back bad habits and bad feelings again. TIME TO STOP. Guess I better get going.....off to the army, see ya all tomorrow.
Back again,.....just checked my guestbook and once again it has been invaded by my "friend" wasted.....he is the man that I was talking to,after I met him on the net....the one that I told you all about how I decieved him, how that other part of me came out.....I have over and over said that I was sorry, still it wont stop. For all of you that distrust me because of never ending guestbook entry's. Im sorry and I have been telling the truth. I will get the pics up as soon as I can and then this matter can stop.....until he thinks of something else to torture me with. I am never going stop forgiving myself for what I have done......I just wish people could learn to forgive as well, we all make mistakes, dont we????????? Im sorry again wasted. (his handle) I will be sorry every single day......
I wish that could be enough. To all my friends out there, thanks for sticking by me. Im not giving this page up........
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July17,1999
Once again my guestbook is being invaded.....yes, I deserve it, and
Im not really even going to answer or respond to it anymore. Since I have put this on the web, I have been honest about the weight, the abuse, sexual and domestic, my children and the problems I have with them, never in denial and always being quite honest about it. This web page, my journals is all I have to let this all out.....how I really feel, and what goes on with my family and me. As Mr Wasted has pointed out so many times.....be honest, if he would read back I was....yes, I did something wrong. I pretended to be someone I wasnt....no Im not lying about getting so displaced, and it does happen to people......this does happen. So many of you have shared many of the same problems with me....call it the "alter ego" Anyway, not trying to use that as a never ending "abuse excuse" I know what I did was wrong, and I have said that I was sorry over and over again.....Rich is destroyed by it, I hear it every single day, my kids know and hate me for it.....now I guess Mr Wasted wants you all to hate like he does.....I wish I could take it all back, make it go away, as for taking responsbilty..Oh I have. What I wanted to do with this page, helping myself, as well as all of you that have written to me and became friends, it means the world to me. I would love to get back to the reasons for all of this.....the dieting, self esteem, getting over sexual abuse, domestic violence, liking yourself and most of all trying to let the past go so that can happen. I have no bad feelings over Mr wasted's revenge and never ending guestbook entries.....he feels he has to do that, and that is quite okay. Though, I will not respond anymore....that was a bit stupid and immature on my part and that will stop today. Once again, Mr wasted, I am SORRY......I have told all, not once but twice now. If you ,must carry on your revenge, so be it.For all you like I always do I need
that I ask for your opinion.....which I value, Should I go on with this page? Or should it end? I will be the first to admit that I have screwed up. Let me know. You too Mr Wasted, I value your opinion as well........as for who was the other man that made an entry..."tim"?
I have no idea who that was...and sorry that you feel you know me so well to make an opinion......if I have to be honest, why dont you too
"tim"? & "Adeline"?. Thank you.
| Hi everyone this is Rich, Roses Husband. Just want to make something clear, if any of you doubt the validity of the contents of these journals DON"T DO IT it is all true and Rose has lived through these horrible things in her life.I have accepted all this you should too. Just because MR WASTED has a chip on his shoulder he should realize I have dealt with this and We are going forward with our lives. People make mistakes in life, They learn from them and they move on. This web page has done wonderful things for Rose and for all the People she has touched and helped. She will not quit this page because of petty, childish behavior of one. One who questioned things but chose to ignore them. I am Proud of my wife and all she has done and yes She has lost all this weight and She does indeed fit into size 5 pants and looks absolutely GREAT. There is no reason for this abuse to continue, So TIM please STOP. The past is past move on.
July19,1999
Well 38 today....uck, although I still dont feel like Im 38, so thats the main point.....well lets see what has happened so far, hit a turkey on the way home. Yeah, it tried to fly over my car and you know they cant really fly so I hit it. A racoon got into my garbage and it was all over the place. The guy next door had a really bad reaction to steriods and cortisone, bendryl and something called jewelweed which is supposed to clear it up.....he drank it and went nuts. Rich and him got into a tangle, and um.....trying to think if there was anything else. Its all ok now and back to normal,the girls at work gave me a gift certificate for Kats nail salon (Im really happy about that!)and a cake, which damn I had to have a piece......I will never get this weight off. Anyway, Im back, the nasties are gone....sorry about taking out the guestbook. It was just turning into an immature circus. I printed it all out first, so many great entries that I had to save, and hopefully one day soon I can put a new one back in. I need to get back to what is important here,
the web page, and my real friends which I have neglected to try and answer morons.....Im sorry to you that really matter and always supported me. So friends, shall we get back to the business of dieting????? Sweating???? No chocolate??????? thats depressing. :-)
though thin is better, isnt it? Love ya and talk tomorrow. Oh, Rich got me these beautiful 1800 prints of victorian woman and children that I have been wanting forever.....they are gorgeous. I also got taken to out to dinner which yes I consumed more food and drink...NOT even going to get near the scale for a few days....
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July20,1999
Hiya friends, quitting the army next week, Im getting so sick of it,
almost walked out today, but thought that would be a tad immature...and gave notice. I want to spend the rest of the summer with the kids,(Did I just write that???) You know me, counting the days til school starts again, but I really love them....Honest. lol.
I also miss the red beast and traveling, I went to Allentown with Rich on Sunday to pick up a trailer and it felt so great that I just wanted to keep going, south, north, east, west...I didnt care, just away from this hicky town. So next Fri I will be jobless again in Pa.
I want to go to school or try and find a better job in Sept. We will see. Had a banana today for breakfast/lunch....going back to starvation for awhile I guess. I know its not the right way, but it helps to get weight off fast, then back to normal healthy eating...ah,who am I kidding, I never follow any real diet. Though it works, and I got to get back to exercise, thats the real key. Im not sure if Im having problems with my mail, I have been answering all the letters that come in, but havent heard back...hope that you all recieved them and THANK YOU for all your never ending support.....love ya and chat tomorrow.
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July21,1999
Really didnt want to go in today and be immature and just quit, but did it and will stick to my next friday last day. The kids were going at it this morning over cereal....I mean, does it ever stop?????? Other then that had a rice cake for breakfast and a lean pocket for dinner. Im on a serious mission......on another little note, I dont understand why there was so many remarks about that there was no way I could be a size 5...I never said I was a true 5, just that I fit into a few pairs, believe me (being the "clothes tech" that I am) I know jeans run all different, If I see a pair of jeans I like and I measure them, if they have a 26 inch waist I take it....some are 5's,6,s and damn levis are 10's. So, just had to say that....being a drama queen, what can I say? Im Italian, its in the blood :-). All body structures are different,carry weight different. The scale is nothing, it changes every day, if you go by that you will drive yourself insane, I know...been there. I go by my clothes, if they fit right Im okay, If they get tight...I know I gained. With all that said if I have to be on the net for another year til I hit 120...(no matter what the doc says) so be it. Let it be written, let it be done....LOL. Oh somebody slap me.....chat tomorrow.
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July22,1999
I really hate my job! I dont know how Im going to last another day and week.....but got to be mature, right? Stick to my notice....I could bore you all with the stupid crap going on everyday, but its a waste of space. So Rich is on his way home, should be here soon and we are going out again this weekend! Finally getting to wear all those great clothes for every occasion that I have been picking up everyday. The prostitude has moved out, and everyone seems to be quite happy about that, except when the landlord sees what a trashed out dump they left it, almost as bad as this was......I ate normal today, rice cakes this morning and ziti and meatballs for dinner. Better then yesterday....I bought my neighbor a cake for her bday and some aromatheraphy candles. I know she is going to ask me over there later for cake.....I need to learn to say no to cake. I need to study my thighs.....chat later.
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July24,1999
Didnt get a chance to get on the net yesterday, we moved my office out and Andrea into the room....she was so happy, we bought her a new bed and I got her a great comforter and curtain set, of course my daughter would rather have lime green, neon pink, orange, but my black,pink and burgandy will have to do. We went out last night with our neighbors and after not eating all day, I consumed too much food and a few many strawberry margeritas.....feel like a bloated pig today, thats for sure. Anyway, got more stuff to organize in a way too little house, but its the last stop til we get our own place....
Chat with all later........
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July25,1999
Have some time for a post before my company comes for the barbecue, of course it looks like we have a mother of a storm coming in, figures.....I think Im losing my mojo...lol,(I know yours is missing too Jeanne.....
I find , I have not much to say, am I becoming boring? Is my Andy Warhol "15 minutes of fame" gone?????? Am I washed out? Nah.....just a writers block so to say. My drama queen needs to get back out of the closet that she has been hiding in....talk to you all tomorrow....
(well there always the story of what sis and bro have been seen behind the football field.....)
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July26,1999
Well the barbecue was interesting, I invited my friend from work (the one that I give rides home everyday) and her boyfriend, and my neighbors Sandy and Eric. It was for 3pm, being Italian, you know that I cook for 100 no matter who is coming, and I get a call at 3 from my friend at work telling me that they are going swimming for alittle while and will be over at 5.....YOU JUST DONT DO THAT,#1. I have everything ready, so Im just chilling and watching Thelma & Louise for the 30th time, and they finally show up, I bring out all the food, and they are not hungry, why????? Cause they had no problem telling us that they are tripping on acid. With my kids in the living room with the windows open, if that wasnt bad enough they brought some dude that looked like an extra for "The Lost Boys".....Im alittle ticked off you can say. I told them that they looked like hell and they should go home and rest, Of course they grab four beers and just leave. Have I told you how much I hate this town?I stood up for this girl
when they were all trashing her, telling me that her boyfriend was a piece of garbage, took her home all the time,
and then find out what it really is all about. Why even make friends here? They are all the same, and I really just want to get out of this town, forget that, the whole damn county.....So that was yesterday, and thankfully Eric had a really good appetite and made up for all the food that would of been trashed..:-). Work really sucked, the ac was broke again.....and 4 more days, I cant wait. The dog took off this morning, but she decided to come back, the parakeets wont eat their new diet enriched seed, like since when are parakeets picky?
The lovebirds keep getting of their cages and wrecking the place, and
how many days til school starts????????? See ya all tomorrow
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July27,1999
Rest in peace Clara, (my white and blue parakeet)....I think I starved her too, I told you yesterday that the keets werent eating their seed, so I may have caused it, I dont know. She wasnt looking very good either and I thought she was just molting. Keith buried her,
and I feel horrible. Work was horrible, no ac again, everyone was cranked out and then to come home to my kids on a roll.....Im losing my patience and they just dont know when to stop. Annie is throwing fans at her brother, hes yelling at her. Then of course I get the "You dont love me!!!!!" Always loved that line. So next week it all comes to an end, my career as a clothes hanger...and back to stay at home mom on the verge of a nervous breakdown...lol. I know, just one more month til school starts. Rich came in last nite and now on the way to the top of Maine...on the Candian Border, I WANT TO BE THERE! Its probably cool and beautiful....instead of this hot muggy no rain crappy summer we are having....gee, Im in a great mood today.
Though there is a good side to all this, (just havent found it....:-)
see ya all tomorrow
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July28,1999
Still no ac at work, thank god I have two more days, and as all the Murphys Law would show, that would be the day that the ac was fixed..
anyway, not that I care that much today. I have been sick all week, nausus, tired, headaches....might be the job and the no ac and ventilation, not sure. Rich and I are fighting again, yeah it was all getting back together, the pieces were being picked up.....but the kids wont listen to me, he thinks I do nothing about it, and honestly I dont know what to do. I want them to respect me, listen to me. They dont....I feel that alot is how they see me being treated at times, at first with my ex and the times that Rich yelled at me about all that was going on not caring that they heard it all. Am I wrong? I am so sick and tired of feeling like a bad mom, I love my kids more then anything, my babies....maybe thats the problem, I baby them too much.
I dont know friends....I just have that nasty feeling of failure again
of defeat. I just dont know what to do with them. Im quitting my job to stay home with them, Rich says that if I dont change I will never be able to work again.....why is it always me? Talk to you all tomorrow
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July29,1999
Crack the champagne.....after a real long talk this morning, the kids actually listened to me!!!! I came home to a clean house, all chores done (even the laundry!) and no phone calls from my neighbor telling me that they are killing each other. There is a god....Though, its just one day, cant get too carried away with myself. Work....no AC again, and wait til you hear this one...we have fleas in the building, I got bitten at least three times.So no ac, fleas, no ventilation and my boss Cindy takes me outside and begs me to stay one more week.....Sucker with a capital S. Me, I talked to Rich and he said that its up to me, but I really want to make everything okay at home. Hes on his way home now for the nite, then off to NoCarolina..but he will be home Sat aft for Annies bday. Um, also a pregnancy test is in the plans....(I know...just shoot me) I really dont think I am, but who knows? I will definantly let you know. Talk
to U tomorrow..........
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July30,1999
With sorrow and a tiny bit of relief, I am not pregnant. The test was
negative....I guess its for the best and not meant to be, but damn...was even thinking of names. Talk to you all tomorrow, that is if I survive the Andrea bday shopping trip.
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July31,1999
I have survived the shopping trip.....HOT,I cant remember a summer this hot and miserable.....I cant wait til it ends, then school starts...:-). Andrea had a 155 dollars to spend, and Im pretty proud of her for taking 50 and starting a savings account for college, I told her whatever she gives me,(babysitting money, allowance) I will double....lets see how she does. Rich will be in tonite and not sure what the plans are for tomorrow except of course another cake, I got to stop with these cakes.....I really dont think they are going to help me lose any weight. See ya ll tomorrow......
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